comfort...and worries | dyin2live's Blog

The good news is that the new shrink called me Friday and offerred me an appointment on Monday.  That was such a relief, to hear from them so soon and to not have to wait until February.

The worrisome part to me is that I am now afraid of what they will do.  I have gone back on the Abilify and am feeling good.  My friends that are still talking to me tell me that they can tell a difference--that I am happier, less moody.  I like being this way.  I like being likeable.  I am afraid that since it messed with my liver that they will pull me off it and try something else.  Yes, I know--this is what I wanted, but now that I think about what that could mean it scares the hell out of me.  What if it doesn't work?  What if it leaves me in worse shape than I am without meds alone?  What kind of damage will I do to the people around me, to myself??

sigh.