On Friday... | dyin2live's Blog

The good news is I feel much better today.  :)

Friday morning, first thing I went back to the Dr. again for more bloodwork.  I was beginning to feel like a pincushion for all the sticks and pokes they'd given me.  They had wanted to hook me up to an IV again and I basically refused... my stomach had settled enough that I felt I could just drink the liquid I needed.  AND there wasn't a vein left on my arms or hands that they hadn't blown or already used.  AND I was sick of being a pincushion! 

Once I got the lab slip from the nurse I saw what the doctor was writing as a diagnosis and her treatment methods suddenly made sense:  I had another case of acute pancreatitis.  Only this time, it was made more complicated by the inflammation of my liver which did not happen to me the first time I had pancreatitis several years ago.  Being NPO (no food allowed) for day after day suddenly made sense, as did the IV's.  I suddenly understood just how close she was to putting me in the hospital on Wednesday, and I now believe had I gone in to the ER when I was in pain early Wednesday morning I would have been in the hospital whether I liked it or not.  Anyway, the doctors' office closes at noon on Fridays so they told me they would let me know by noon what my lab results were and if I could eat over the weekend, or if I'd still be NPO.  I hoped and prayed and did everything I could to keep my mind off food.  I went and ran errands, I came home and did housework, I called the Dr's office a couple of times to check and see if my labs came in...  I finally get a call at noon and all the nurse said was "you can eat!" 

YAY!!!  Sweet dietary freedom!!!

well, sorta...

I'm restricted to a bland diet, but as bad as that sounds I have been there before so I know how to get around the "bland" part and still have enjoyable food.  It's not my favorites of Italian or Mexican, but it's still nice.  The very first thing I did was fix myself some french toast without the cinnamon or nutmeg (but with the vanilla!!) and oh, how that tasted so good!  I had to remind myself not to pig out too fast because I hadn't eaten all week long between when I was originally sick Monday and Tuesday and when I had to go NPO for the rest of the week.  You never really think about what you eat and truly enjoying it until you're told you can't do it anymore...then when the fast is broken, it's like you've been set free from a prison somehow.  LOL  Okay, so maybe that seems a little dramatic but still the absolute relief of being able to put food in my mouth and being able to curb the hunger pangs is a pretty big emotion all by itself.  :D

So today I spent the day with the family doing family things, and enjoying my meals with them.  I am working on keeping myself hydrated and am drinking more water than Dr. Pepper for once.  LOL  I am feeling very grateful that I am feeling well, and am relishing every minute of it.  I thank God for my health today, and I thank Him that things were not any worse this week for me.  I am told that what I had wrong with me could very easily have been fatal.  I have often wished to not have to play this game any more, and I have occassionally been attracted to some very dark planning in my own head, but when confronted with the actual possibility that I could have died had it been worse I do know that I am not ready to give up on this game just yet.  I still feel I can win at least part of it.  :)  So for today, I am grateful for my health and for everything that it means.

love to you all,
D2L